My name was Xijin, a spirit cat.
I followed Grandmaster Jiaheng to cultivate and comprehend Buddhism.
Now, Jiangxuan, the "Spirit Extermination Envoy", was protecting all living beings in this world.
As long as we survived, we would be able to give the world a clean land, so that humans could enjoy the peace of life and not be disturbed by other living beings.I lived with Jiangxuan.
In name, we were companions, masters and disciples, but in reality, we were more like lovers.
I relied on him.
I didn't know why this had happened.Every time, I didn't dare to complete the mission alone, and he didn't let me do it alone.
He would always accompany me, not allowing me to take even half a step away from him.
However, we had never done anything overboard, including...
we just hugged each other occasionally, encouraging each other, never kissing or...
ever doing anything between a man and a woman.He is not polite to me.
Between us, we have never truly expressed our love for each other.
Even the simplest words, "I love you", have never been said.He seemed to be avoiding the feeling, so I thought we were more like lovers.
It was a love that couldn't come out of the water.
But he was very nice to me.It was so good that sometimes I would lose myself and think that he would never leave me.
He would always love me sincerely.
In fact...
his love was a form of possession, a form of total dominance, not allowing anyone to get close.
"Jiang Xuan, the vegetables you cooked last time were really delicious.
I still want to eat them."I leaned against the table and stared at his back, tempted to watch him every day.
I admitted I loved him too.
He turned around, looking comical in his apron, and couldn't help but laugh."I'll make it for you right away." Jiangxuan snorted and smiled.
He was like this.
He would satisfy any request I made, regardless of what it was.
Jiangxuan, on the other hand, was omnipotent.
He could fulfill almost all of my strange requests.In my eyes, Jiangxuan was a godlike existence.
He doted on me to the extreme.
In my memory, he rarely throws a tantrum, but his personality is sometimes cold and gloomy.
He can forgive me for everything I've done, including the fact that I accidentally released the evil spirit that he captured.Unless I was injured, he wouldn't get angry.
Of course...
there was one more thing that he absolutely couldn't mention to him.
That was...
memories.
I asked him, "Did I know you before?" He didn't speak, and his face was tense.The atmosphere would eventually pass in a dead silence.
I changed the way I asked him.
"Why did Grandmaster Jiaheng hand me over to you?
He didn't answer.
I can't think of an answer myself.
I don't understand why Grandmaster Jiaheng would hand me over to him."In my memories, I had been cultivating in the Thousand Spirits Temple that year, living alone on the back mountain.
I had never seen anyone or any living beings by my side.
I had always lived in a lonely world.
Until one day, Grandmaster Jiaheng appeared and told me to look for someone.That's right.
That's what I remembered.
So, I went down the mountain and entered the human world to look for Jiangxuan.
I was with this man who had always lived alone.
He soon accepted me.
"Jiangxuan...
how long have you been living alone?" I asked him casually during dinner.The western cuisine he made was delicious.
In fact, it was delicious and careful.
He looked more like a woman than a woman.
I was wild, like a woman.
He paused, the knife and fork in his hand hovering in midair, his eyes turning slightly, the corners of his lips curled, and he looked up at me."I forgot.

It's been a long time." "Before I met you, you were all alone?" I tilted my head and asked him.
He was stunned, lost in thought."I think you have a lot of secrets." I told the biggest truth.
There were a lot of things he didn't want to tell me, and when it came to sensitive topics, he would avoid them and choose to remain silent.
I didn't know why, but I really didn't like him like that.
But today, he had a rare mention of the person who had "work" with him."She's called the other shore." Jiangxuan put down his knife and fork, picked up his glass, and drained it of its red liquid.
He placed it down and continued, "She's from Hell.""I...
I've already forgotten how to find her.
All I know is that I've been with her for a very, very long time.
I've already forgotten about time and eternal life.
She's a very good companion, and she's very responsible for everything.
Even though...
the final outcome isn't too good."What's wrong with her?
Where did she go?" "She's dead." Jiangxuan's expression didn't change at all.
He simply recounted his sad story casually.
It was almost as though death was nothing in his eyes.I didn't know what to say, and a hint of sadness rose in my heart.
In my heart, I always thought I should know this man called the other shore, but I didn't remember her at all.
"Do you like her, then?" He paused, then got up and walked to the floor-to-ceiling window.He pulls it away.
Moonlight jumps into the room.
It shines on him.
He's draped in a layer of moonlight, bathed in the Milky Way.
He looks back at me.
I look back at him in a daze.
"You're the one I love.""He said.
I seemed to hear the words I'd been talking about in my dreams, and there was an invisible murmur in my head.
He approached me, stood in front of me, and looked down at me.
I'd never seen him so affectionate.
His beautiful eyes were bright and dreamy.Is it real, or is it nothingness?
"I love you...
It's always been you." He repeated.
I looked up at him and looked him into my eyes.
"Why?
Why do you love me?
Obviously...
we didn't know each other at all.
We..." he interrupted me.He called out my name.
"Xijin, Xijin." "Promise me that no matter what happens in the future, you must remember.
Remember that I love you.
Forgive me for my selfishness.
I just love you too much, and that's why I've become so chaotic, and that's why I've done such terrible things.""Jiangxuan, what are you talking about?
I don't understand." I furrowed my brows.
He hugged me tightly."Promise me, okay?" I'd never heard Jiangxuan confess in such a low voice.
Normally, he didn't even have the chance to say a word of warmth, so why was he acting so strange today?
"Jiangxuan, I promise you.
Let go of me first.""Nothing happened." "I think you have a lot of secrets, but I've never heard of them." "Xijin." His voice was choked with sobs.
"Forget about these things.
As long as you know that I love you, that's enough."I got up and hugged him from behind.
I could feel his body stiffening, and even my body was trembling slightly.
"I won't leave you.
I'll never leave you." No matter what had happened before, I would always stay by Jiangxuan's side.I didn't know why he was so confident.
I wanted to stay by his side forever.
No matter what happened in the past or what happened in the past, Jiangxuan was the only one who stayed by my side.My eternal life would be with Jiangxuan.